With a heavy heart and sadness and disappointment in myself I have decided not to compete in two bodybuilding and fitness shows this year. I am not ready for any show, I was so sick back in the summer for several weeks which just put my training behind and now with Toby and his health problems, I can't even think about competing, my heart and mind are just not into it. There will always be others shows and I can take some time to put on more size and get my weight back up, I need to gain about 3-5 more pounds. I am back to hard core training and it feels great and it helps me to get my anger and sadness out, and after my workout my head is clear and I feel like I can handle what life is going to send my way and I feel stronger for my sweet Toby. It just was not in the stars for me to compete this fall, , maybe this Spring.

Patricia I know body building is important to you . I am sorry to hear you had such a tough decision to make. (((hugs)))

Good decision, you and Toby and Misty are more important. There will always be shows to do.

Sorry Patricia, I know this is very important to you. But like you said, there will be other shows. Right now you have other things going on.

You're making a good decision...we need you healthy.